i tear myself into pieces;

small DH picspam

Sat, 13 Mar 2010 17:21:36 GMT

I kind of love them together. Too bad it isn't gonna last. lol

And I keep calling Robin "Rita", instead. I'm too used to seeing her on Dexter and both names start with an R. >_

I was cracking up, ngl.

Fri, 05 Mar 2010 01:40:10 GMT

Funky (8:31:48 PM): goto work for me
dementria (8:31:49 PM): cause i is tired
dementria (8:31:55 PM): =(
Funky (8:31:57 PM): i dont wanna work for kanya west anymore
dementria (8:32:00 PM): i would if i weren't tired
dementria (8:32:04 PM): LOL
dementria (8:32:09 PM): kanyE west is your boss
dementria (8:32:12 PM): sounds amazing
Funky (8:32:32 PM): "WHOA WHOA WHOA IM SORRY DEREK AND IMMA LET U FINISH, BUT MOMJIBO SLICE DOWN THERE WAS THE BEST PACKER OF ALL TIME"
dementria (8:32:38 PM): does he steal your awards and tell you that your co-worker had a better music video?
Funky (8:32:48 PM): ^
dementria (8:32:52 PM): LOL wtf
Funky (8:33:01 PM): that and i dont understand a gawd damn word he is saying
Funky (8:33:09 PM): IM SORRY SIR I DONT UNDERSTAND THE CLICKING
dementria (8:33:13 PM): Well you don't know black, so
dementria (8:33:15 PM): just asian
Funky (8:33:20 PM): i know some black
Funky (8:33:21 PM): like
Funky (8:33:22 PM): sup money
Funky (8:33:24 PM): and dog
Funky (8:33:25 PM): son
Funky (8:33:26 PM): yo
Funky (8:33:31 PM): homeslice
dementria (8:33:34 PM): That's the basics, yes
Funky (8:33:34 PM): hizzy
Funky (8:33:37 PM): shit like that
Funky (8:33:54 PM): its funny
Funky (8:34:00 PM): asian spoon place
Funky (8:34:02 PM): to
Funky (8:34:06 PM): africa stalking
Funky (8:34:12 PM): i just cant win

THIS IS A NOVEL OF A POST.

Tue, 23 Feb 2010 18:42:40 GMT

Omg, my childhood babysitter added my mom on Facebook a few days ago. =X I have one of her kids (her daughter, cause we were "friends" when we were little) on there, but she didn't have her mom listed in her info so I was like, YAY, I'M SAFE FROM THAT CRAZY BITCH. But no, apparently I am not safe.

I also just saw that one of my other childhood friends that also had her as a babysitter added her as a friend today. My days... are SO numbered.

I kind of want to blame her for every weird compulsion or anxiety I feel as an adult. I feel like she's the sole cause of how most of my mind works and why I am the way that I am.

She fucked me up, k?

She was scary. And yet I had some kind of weird crush on her when I was a kid. I constantly sought her approval and attention. I'm starting to think I had Stockholm syndrome or something. Cause that bitch was MEAN. She terrified and humiliated me more times than I can count. I was a sensitive kid. I cried a lot. She had a bad temper and was just mean for really retarded reasons.

I remember once she was making kool-aid and had me try it cause she wasn't sure if she put enough sugar in. So I try it and it tasted really nasty, meaning not enough sugar, so I spit out it in the kitchen sink. She YELLED at me like she was having the worst PMS ever for spitting in the KITCHEN SINK and claimed I should have done it in the BATHROOM SINK. LOL I remember this was when she had another babysitter helping her... cause Carrie (my babysitter) babysat like 14 kids. This was her primary income. So she had like, an "assistant" babysitter to help her. This girl was like... maybe 18-20. She was young. But I remember the younger girl looking at Carrie like she was a fucking psycho for yelling at me about spitting in the kitchen sink. That made me feel a little better knowing someone else thought Carries attitude was uncalled for and I wasn't a "bad kid" or whatever. lol

She used to like, grab you by your shoulders and look at you right in your eyes, with her face like 3 inches from yours when she'd get mad, too. I can still remember her crazy green eyes. She had big eyes, man. With long, red hair. She'd laugh at me a lot and call me stupid.

Not to mention she used to abuse their dog. I used to hate seeing that. She threw their beagle, Casper, down the stairs once while I was there.

And her stupid ass little sister locked me in her basement once when Carrie wasn't there for an hour. Oh Rachael, you were such a cunt. Carrie was piiiissed at her. Apologized to my mom a billion times, telling her that Rachael wouldn't be watching any of the kids again if she was to run an errand.

Then there's the time she chased Tony (her step-kid) up the stairs with a baseball bat... cause he accidentally threw a ball at Emily (one of the kids she watched). He looked terrified.

I spent a lot of time at Carrie's. She lived down the street from me. Had 2 kids of her own (two little girls who were a few years younger than me) and her step-kid. She babysat a lot of kids from my school. One of them was one of my best friends, Kristyn. We were the same age. We'd go to Carrie's every morning to get on the bus to go to school, then we'd get dropped off there afterward. As did about 10 other kids. lol It was fun there most of the time, cause there was lots of people to play with, obviously. We'd be there till our parents got off work, so about 3 or 4 hours. We'd also be there in the summer, as were some of the other kids. So that's a full day pretty much. From 8am till about 4-5pm, 5 days a week in the summer. Carrie was practically my 3rd parent. lol She babysat me from the time I was 4 years old until... I think I was 11 when I moved.

I used to constantly have dreams about her until recently. Sometimes they were sexual dreams (ugh, gag me with a spoon), and other times they would be dreams about randomly seeing her in real life and showing her how different and grown up I am now. I was a shy kid... and sensitive, like I said. If she'd yell at me, you can bet I cried. lol Which then would lead to her asking me why I'm crying.

I pretty much hate that she got to me as much as she did when I was little. I still want to run into her sometime just to show her that I'm not a shy, sensitive little girl anymore. That she doesn't get to me anymore.

I also saw a picture of her on her daughters Facebook a couple weeks ago... She's so much older now, it was so weird. Cause obviously, I still have the image of her when I was little in my head. Seeing her so much older I think... helped me. O.o Made her seem less threatening or something. I don't exactly know. They certainly stopped the re-occurring sexual dreams, though, that's for sure. O.O LOL I haven't had one since.

Braces at 22. Wonderful!

Fri, 15 Jan 2010 02:19:53 GMT

So my mom is finally getting me braces. =| Only about 10 years late on that one, but I'm grateful. LOL She said she's going to make my dad pay for half the expenses, but that he doesn't know about it yet. -cue my mom laughing evilly- Can't wait to see how that goes over. >_> My dad doesn't seem to want to pay for any of my shit lately (like my car, for example), so I have a creeping feeling that he's going to be all "wtf?" when she tells him about this. But honestly, I don't care, cause I should have had braces put on 10 years ago. I know my mom sees it like that too, that they both pretty much owe me this since it was something they always planned on doing then just never did. lol

But I'm definitely ready for braces. I don't care how much it's gonna hurt or annoy me, or cause me to lose sleep. My teeth are a major self-confidence issue with me, so having my teeth fixed would help me loads in that department. lol

rip

Tue, 12 Jan 2010 00:04:59 GMT

My coffee/espresso maker broke. fml. =(

Now I'm looking online for a new coffee maker... and I'm kind of excited. lol

It's Christmas Tiiiiiime

Fri, 25 Dec 2009 23:39:37 GMT

Christmas Eve at my grandmas was good this year. Why? Because she put out hard liquor cause she claimed she wanted to "get rid of some of it". Well, I got rid of some of it for you, grandma. =D lol I got kind of progressively more drunk as the night went on, even though I stopped drinking after an hour of being there. Idek what happened. lol I had vodka and some rum. Oh how I have missed vodka. ♥

First picture. My cousin Dalton playing some ancient video game platform called "Playstation." Very interesting stuff.

The glory of the night. Most of it was this nasty whiskey shit. So we stuck to the vodka and rum. lol

James being... James.

Osi (my cousins baby) in his Santa outfit with my uncle Tom. LOL Osi is so big. He's not even a year old yet. O.O

I told you I spilt booze on my pants. =( Sad part is that I wasn't even drunk yet.

My mom and Paul chillin'.

My cousin Abby. :3 She's adorable.

She kept wanting to pose for pictures. LOL

James, again... being James.

Gift opening time!

Back to front: My cousins Dylan and Samantha, and their mom, my Aunt Tina.

My mom about to lay the smack down on some kids. Not really, but it looks that way. =P

One of my uncles girlfriends kids. He's so cute.

Catching Dalton off-guard. lol James kept calling him Waldo because of his shirt.

Osi again! He looked so tired the whole night. lol

My Uncle Michael with his girlfriends kids.

James laying on the floor cause it was really hot in my grandmas house and he claimed the floor was the coolest location. lol

James playing Abby's keyboard that she got. She was getting so pissed at him. LOL

Christmas morning was good, too. Got up at like 5:45am as usual. We get up early to open gifts. lol We like to do it when it's still dark out for whatever reason. It just doesn't feel right otherwise.

I got pretty much everything that I asked for, which was nice. Since I don't really feel like talking about what I got, I have pictures. :3

New headphonessssssss! Finally! My good ones broke in two in the summer and I had been using these like, probably 7 year old headphones for months. The quality was pretty bad. =\ But these headphones... Ugh, orgasms in my ears.

I gots a new computer chair. =D Wasn't expecting this one, but I loooove it. My other chair was kinda falling apart... lol This one is so comfy.

My computer set up with my new chair. :3

Who doesn't like fluffy, comfortable socks?

Shirts that Paul got me.

My new video card and fans for my computer. =D The fans are HUGE. I do not remember there being a size on the website my mom ordered them from... I'm not even sure if these will fit in my computer. LOL

Books! I got the Dan Brown one from Paul. He likes his books. lol And the Carrie Fisher one I had asked for. Gonna read it as soon as I finish Darkly Dreaming Dexter.

Season 4 of the X-Files and The Fame Monster. Weeeeeeeeeeeee!

These are things I bought for myself with my Christmas/birthday money. lol Some make up and a book.

Annnnndddd Paul using a remote control car to chase Chance around the house with. lol

It's just a stupid phone call!

Thu, 24 Dec 2009 00:17:36 GMT

I want to be happy on my birthday/Christmas, right? So why can't I pick up a fucking phone? What do I think is going to happen, like, seriously? That a knife is going to rip through the receiver and slice my ear off? lol

Sorry, I'm just talking to myself. >_> Or trying to rationalize with myself, really.

DO IT. CALL. THIS IS GETTING SAD.

I can't write.

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 21:00:23 GMT

I have no idea. Was just playing with words. None of it will make complete sense to anyone but me. =P And that's how I wanted it.

How I covet the
Pools of red.

Stream awakens
Inside the shell.

Memories kept
Beautiful sight.

Then to see
Washed away.

Purified.

Fixed it is
Strapped down.

Forgotten
But felt.

Pools of red
I covet.

new icons and such

Mon, 21 Dec 2009 01:43:50 GMT

Just a little extra promotion for my icon journal. =P

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Episodes:
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All Dexter, all the time.

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 15:35:40 GMT

I'm on such a big Dexter kick right now that I realized... I'm re-watching season 1 and reading Darkly Dreaming Dexter (which is the first book of the series) AT THE SAME TIME. =|
The first book is pretty much exactly like season 1 of the tv show. There's a few differences I've noticed, but nothing huge so far.

And even after realizing what I'm doing... here I am, sitting at the computer with some Cheez-Its watching 1x06: "Return to Sender", while I also fully intend to read more of the book later tonight.

I need help. LOL

Also, I was at the mall yesterday and some guy working at a shoe store hit on me. Even though I am obviously not into guys, I kinda left feeling good cause usually people mistake me for a teenager. =P In other words, I don't get hit on much by people my age.
Then immediately as I was walking to another store, a young, Hispanic woman that worked at a little hair clip stand - who I could barely understand cause her accent was very thick - asked me how old I was. She had to ask me like 5 times cause I couldn't understand her, LOL, but once I got it I told her I was 21 and she said I looked 16. -___- Although, THAT kinda made me feel good too cause I am going to be 22 in 6 days and I feel so very old now. =( I am seriously starting to think about wrinkles and wanting to buy an array of face creams.

I can only hope people are still mistaking me for someone who is 6-7 years younger when I am older.

/wrist /wrist /wrist

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 10:42:28 GMT

...SO I JUST WATCHED THE SEASON FINALE OF DEXTER AND STUFF.

Um, I am so fucking sad right now, but let's start from the beginning, y/y?

So I waited all night for this episode to be put online. I was ~kind of~ losing my mind a little bit because I was tired of waiting, so I think I hyped this up way more than I should have. lol

But anyway, I really loved the episode. Seeing Dexter being completely irrational in the beginning was kind of annoying me cause he's usually not like that, but I got through it. lol

The scene with him and Rita in the bedroom after she got him out of prison was so sweet. There really wasn't a lot of Dexter/Rita shippy type stuff this season and I kind of used to love them together in the beginning, so that was really nice and touching. Dexter seemed really sincere about wanting to be a good man and seemed to appreciate Rita more than usual. You just ~felt~ it, if that makes sense. lol

When Dexter went to Trinity's house and the SWAT team showed up, I was like, "OH SHIT". LOL That was one moment where I was like on the edge of my seat cause that was a reeeeeeeeeeally bad time for him to be there. lol RUN DEXTER RUN.

The stuff with Trinity I pretty much expected. They quarrel a little, run around each other, and then Dexter eventually takes him out. lol Preeeeetty much how it went. =P

And the stuff with Deb finding out about Brian being Dexters brother I already knew about cause I succumbed to spoilers a few days before. lol So that wasn't anything new for me.

By the time the episode was winding down, there was probably 3-4 minutes left and I was starting to get PISSED because all I had heard all night was, "OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT HAPPENED ALKDJFLSK@@%$" - "OMG SOMEONE DIED @#JFJSN#!!2" - "OMG I AM NEVER WATCHING THIS SHOW AGAIN @!AF$&U!LKNFFFD" and so on. lol And I had read that there was supposed to be some huge twist, I was waiting for said twist and thinking that maybe the twist was Deb finding out about Brian? Idk. I just knew I wasn't seeing a twist and I was getting mad about it. Because without a twist it was just a mediocre episode, honestly.

Soooo, Dexter is sitting at his kitchen table after killing Trinity, in the dark, listening to Rita's voicemail message. She tells him that she wishes he were there with them. He decides to call her back... and her phone is ringing from her purse... that is in the room. He finds it, and then he hears the sound of Harrison crying in another room. I AM FREAKING THE FUCK OUT. Omg... When he opened the door and saw Harrison sitting in a puddle of blood and Rita DEAD in the bathtub... I WANTED TO CRY. IT WAS SO FUCKING SAD. I felt sooooooo so so bad, uuugh. And Dexter leaning down to check her pulse and then closing her eyelids. =( OMG. I am wanting to cry just thinking about it. It was Dexters fault that she got killed. =(

I know I said in a previous post that I wouldn't care that much if they killed Rita, but I think that's just because I was worried it was gonna be Deb and for me it's Deb > Rita. LOL Now that I know Rita is dead... FUCK. This sucks. =( I mean, I'm still going to watch the show next season and am kind of interested to see what happens next in the life of Dexter, but man... It's going to be so sad for me to watch.

I just keep thinking about how much Dexter appreciated Rita telling him that he makes her life better... and now she's gone. He still has Deb and all, but still. Ugh. I know Dexter has very few feelings, but I have A LOT OF FEELINGS OKAY AND THAT WAS HEARTBREAKING. LOL

AND NOW THE LAST CONVERSATION DEXTER AND TRINITY HAD ALL MAKES SENSE. Trinity saying that Dexter does believe in heaven, and that he needs to accept his fate and blah blah blah. And he was waaay too content and happy about dying. It was because he knew he killed his wife and that was going to be a huuuuge problem for him. Goddamn, I need to watch that scene again cause I totally did not get it the first time. lol They already hinted that Rita was dead before it was shown!

I'm still kind of in shock. I can't believe that shit happened. Poor, poor Rita. That was a horrific way to die.

And you know what? I was kind of starting to hate her for awhile in this season... She was just getting annoying! lol But now, I take all that back. =(

RIP RITA. ♥

Also, I am wondering as to wtf is going to happen to Dexter in the beginning of next season with him finding Rita dead, ~Trinity style~ in his home. Is he going to become a suspect? SO MANY QUESTIONS. lol And is he going to continue to raise Astor and Cody? Hmmmm. I will know in 9 months. >:[

photography time

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 06:02:29 GMT

Since I am trying to kill free time while waiting for Dexter to magically appear on the interwebs, I decided to post these pictures I took recently.

Yeah, I am sitting on a toilet. Don't worry, the seat is down and I have... leggings on. Aka the 'Lindsay Lohan' look. =P

1. 2.
3. 4.
5. 6.

I like #1 cause it gives the impression that I have cleavage. LOL That's a rare happening.

DEXTER FINALE TONIGHT

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 03:56:23 GMT

I'm waiting very very impatiently for the finale of Dexter to be put online right now! It's been so hard to not get spoiled cause I'm always on Twitter and lots of the people on my list watch it. lol

But omg, I'm starting to get SO FUCKING WORRIED cause someone said in a tweet that they are never going to watch Dexter again after the finale and I was like, O.O BUT WHY?! I also heard that... someone died. That leads me to think they aren't talking about Trinity. No one would get upset if Trinity died and he's basically doomed anyway, right? lol. So I'm getting worried here.
At first I was hoping so hard that it would be Quinn that dies cause I kinda hate him. LOL But I don't think anyone would swear off the show for a non-original character death. So I think he's out. Dammit.

The only character death I would be SO FUCKING PISSED OVER is Deb. Don't get me wrong, I'd be sad if Angel, Maria, Masuka or Rita died, but I'd get over it. They aren't THAT important to me. But Deb? Fuck. I may stop watching it too. Even though I know in the books she doesn't die, so that made me think it CAN'T be Deb. But the show doesn't always follow the books. =( I AM SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. PLEASE DON'T KILL DEB! SOMEONE HOLD ME. =(

Also, thinking about Trinity's sisters death is really making me think about how poetic it would be for Trinity to take Dexters only family he has left... his sister. FUCK. I so hope I am wrong about all of this.

And while I'm at it, NEW LAYOUT → dementria dementria dementria

holy symbolism, batman!

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 23:48:54 GMT

This is damn beautiful. LOL The eye of horus AND the 666 symbol? Very nice.

I'm irritatable today.

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 00:13:11 GMT

It really bothers me when people are so quick to believe everything they hear about some insane theory. Have they ever bothered to look up articles that give actual evidence to debunk all these crazy theories? Of course not. Why would you need to when the crazy theorists give you all the "factual evidence" that you need, right? No. You will never know the full extent to anything unless you read up on both sides of the argument. I seriously judge peoples intelligence when they purposely fail to do this.

I'm a blonde now? Yeah, ok.

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 02:46:35 GMT

I went to the hair salon and got my hair completely remastered.

It's so weird. Every time I go to the bathroom and see myself in the mirror it's kind of a mindfuck. LOL Like, "wtf who is this blonde chick that's in my bathroom?! Oh... right."

I ended up getting my hair cut way shorter than I intended, but somehow when I'm at the salon and sitting in the chair, I don't really mind what they do to my hair. lol I just told her to do whatever would make my hair look like it has "volume", so she cut it as short as she could without it being too extreme and layered it a lot.

I was deteremind to wear these boots today, cause I rarely do. And I have no mirror in my room or even a full length one anywhere, so I just turn my webcam on and take a picture of my full profile to check myself out. =P Total geek move right there.

I picked out the color I wanted my hair to be, though. I think I'm happy with how it came out, or at least I'll be satisfied for a little while. I just wanted a change. But I do already miss my darker hair... lol

The hair dresser I had today reminded me of Shawna a lot, it kind of made me sad. =( I miss her! Can't believe it's been over a year since we saw each other in AC.
But anyway, I spent the 3 hours that I was in the salon talking to my hair dresser about 90s tv shows and music. LOL She was around my age, probably a few years older, so we just sat there and talked about all the stuff we were obsessed with when we were kids in the 90s. Fun stuff.

dementria (5:07:33 PM): lol I keep trying to flip my long, luxurious hair while listening to music only to realize...
I no longer have long, luxurious hair.
jennomac (5:07:38 PM): Shut up blondie.
dementria (5:07:41 PM): ='(
dementria (5:07:51 PM): I HAVE THE BRAIN OF A BRUNETTE STFU

wtf happened?

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 15:23:53 GMT

I don't get why she doesn't like talking to me anymore. Did I change? Did she change? Did I do something wrong that I don't know of? I just... don't understand. And when I get upset I constantly want to tell her to just never talk to me again if that's what she wants, just to spite her or to get it across that this upsets me greatly. But I don't because that's not really what I want. I'd like to say that if she keeps this up I'll no longer be there, but that's not true. I'll always be here, because I want to be here. Even if she doesn't talk to me for a year I'll be here waiting for her to say something. I don't know if that's pathetic or just nice of me. It's more like... I've known you for 10 years and I don't see it as acceptable to just throw it out a window like that. And because I see her as family and you don't just abandon family. And probably because I just can't let go.

I don't know what's worse. Feeling like we drifted apart or having a falling out that causes us to despise one another. Oddly enough, I'd rather it be that last one. At least if we had a falling out I could make sense of it all, and it would be easier to deal with if I hated her.

I just don't know anything anymore and I'm tired of feeling like I don't matter. But the reason I never bring any of this up to her when I ~make her~ talk to me is cause I'm terrified she'll get angry and stop talking to me all together, or will flat out tell me that she just doesn't value my friendship anymore. So I just put up with it all. Apparently I'd rather sit in the dark and wonder than have it all be thrown in my face. When I'm in the dark I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel. If I tell her all this, I'm afraid that light will be shut out.

baby loves to dance, loves to dance in the dark

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 20:08:18 GMT

~I am filled to the brim with GaGa love today~

The "Bad Romance" video is so good! I was kind of bored for the first minute cause not much was going on (it's a 5 minute long video), but after that I felt as if blinking was not an option. LOL It's so weird but really well done. I love weird. If she ever stops being weird I will kill a bitch. =P

I love that she used the "screwing in a lightbulb" dance move in this video like she did during Paparazzi on SNL. I looove that move for some reason. xD There's another one she does but I have no idea how to describe it. I'm not a dance guru. =( But she's kind of clicking her fingers while opening and closing her arms in front of her... that makes no sense when explained. =X AND THE MONSTER MASH. Whoever thought of that is genius. LOL

Also, the final version of "Alejendro" leaked today, so it's a happy GaGa day! ^___^

Not to mention I stayed up for 30 hours yesterday. O.O I kind of wanted to stay up for when the Bad Romance vid came out, but also cause my sleep schedule was screwed and I needed to go to sleep at a decent hour.

I spent the time waiting for the Bad Romance vid impatiently and deciding what website my friend Shawna and I were going to attempt at creating next. We seemingly make new websites a few times a year. LOL But we always kind of... become disinterested with them after awhile or whatever, so this time we want to create something that has as much value as http://megan-online.org did for us. We want long term. lol
It was between doing a 30 Rock fansite or a GaGa fansite. There were many pros and cons for each, but we finally decided on doing a GaGa site. I figured I'd be more devoted to that than a 30 Rock site. If anything, I'd just wanna do a Tina Fey site, so I knew 30 Rock may not be the best choice for me. lol
Then I spent my crazy hours of sleep deprivation and caffeine high trying to give Shawna ideas for the name of our new GaGa site. I don't think I gave her anything useful. LOL Names ranging from G-Spot (was GaGa-Spot at first), Glorious-GaGa (then I said Galloping-GaGa cause... I was high), and Church-of-GaGa. I was then banned from thinking of site names after that one. =P

Then I slept for 16 hours today. I pretty much got 2 days worth of sleep, so I should be good! lol I feel kind of sick today, though.
Oh! And I went to bed with these shorts that are like, stretchy... like something you'd work out in, but they are WAY too small for me now. But I didn't care cause I had nothing else to wear to bed and I was tired. I ended up waking up 4 hours later and my lower body just... ached. I had to to take them off. I think they tried to move my organs or something cause my lower abdominals fucking killed for a good 10 minutes until I fell back to sleep. LOL Fuck those shorts.

One more! I made this signature a few days ago from the ~~Gossip Girl~~ promo images. I'm using it as a profile header on LJ though, too. lol

I'm kinda proud of it, cause I sometimes suck at doing blends. I didn't use any textures, which I rarely do. Only the images that were provided. I'm now wishing I had made it bigger... lol It would have made a nice header for a website that way. I could have always sized it down if I wanted to use it as a sig! I should start doing that... Make everything big at first so it can have multiple purposes! =(

Blasphemy Day

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 00:04:50 GMT

"Last month, atheists marked Blasphemy Day at gatherings around the world, and celebrated the freedom to denigrate and insult religion.

Some offered to trade pornography for Bibles. Others de-baptized people with hair dryers. And in Washington, D.C., an art exhibit opened that shows, among other paintings, one entitled Divine Wine, where Jesus, on the cross, has blood flowing from his wound into a wine bottle.

Another, Jesus Paints His Nails, shows an effeminate Jesus after the crucifixion, applying polish to the nails that attach his hands to the cross."

I swear, sometimes I feel rather ashamed to call myself an atheist. lol

What I really want to know is how they think doing this is going to promote atheism in any shape or form, to get anyone to think differently than they normally would. Cause I know when Christians come up to me and insult my godless existence, it certainly doesn't make me want to join their organization. lol It just causes me discomfort and anger.

Sure, de-baptizing people with hair dryers is pretty damn funny, but the rest of it is just causing a greater divide between people and I just don't understand that concept.

i can't find her. =[

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 05:29:36 GMT

I was trying to find an old childhood friend on Facebook earlier to no avail. I'm 99% positive I have her last name right. =\ I mean, how many different ways can you possibly spell "Johnson?"

After giving up on Facebook I tried Myspace, which is a lot harder to find people on, but I had no luck there either.

It was kind of hard trying to find her on Myspace though, because I'm not entirely sure what she looks like now. lol I have a vague memory of her in my head, but the last time I saw her she was probably 8 years old.

Why does it worry me when a 17-18 year old girl doesn't have a Facebook or Myspace page? LOL I feel like everyone has one these days, especially if you're a teenager. But somehow my mind was like, "No Facebook/Myspace? Must be dead or homeless."

But anyway, I'm kind of disappointed that I couldn't find her online. I think I was her best friend for a year or 2 before I moved. lol Would have been nice to see what she's been up to.

I did find my old babysitters kid on Facebook. She was such a little bitch when she was younger. LOL Like, seriously. The brattiest kid I've ever seen. It looks like she turned out normal though. Or at least she looks normal from her pictures, but who knows. There could be that same, bratty kid buried deep inside that innocent smile. =P And if she's anything like her mother, then she's probably batshit insane.

She was also friends with Brittany (the girl I was trying to find), but they would fight all the time. Pretty sure they ended up hating each other a few years after I moved away. Brittany would call me sometimes and tell me about Tori doing really bitch-tacular things to her. lol Spreading lies, pulling hair, you know how adolescent girls do.

Grrr, it really bugs me that I can't find her online.

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Thu, 08 Oct 2009 02:45:32 GMT

O.O

Idk who that dude is and I don't care, she just looks gorgeous. lol And usually I think green isn't as great for redheads as most people think, but this particular shade looks really good on her, imo.

pure brilliance.

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 11:54:21 GMT

Madge: "What the hell is a disco stick?!"
GaGa: "I think you know!"

Just don't do that, okay?

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 16:03:07 GMT

If you know me at all, you'll know that I have to be the one to make the move and that I hate to be pushed or "surprised." While I know life can't always go the way I want it to, I will still avoid these things as if my life depends on it no matter what. I'm that stubborn.

Anyway, enough with the cryptic shit that no one understands but me. LOL

I have a new layout. =] I had been changing it a lot recently cause everything I did I wasn't really satisfied with, but this one makes me very happy. =P

dementria dementria dementria

multi-fandom icons

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 15:37:09 GMT

A loooooooooong overdue icon post. lol

[14] Kathy Griffin
[13] True Blood
[5] House MD
[6] Lucille Ball
[4] Simone Simons (Epica)
[3] Joan Rivers
[3] Ellen Page
[5] Lucy Lawless
[3] Misc. (Dana Delany, Lady Gaga, Lily Tomlin)

more here @ kinda_jinxed

♥ ♥ ♥ !!!

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 04:02:30 GMT

That may have been the best surprise I've ever gotten. ♥ I love you, deary!